The only words that could describe my life from 1978 to 1981 would be to say that my life resembled a train wreck. As the calendar flipped to the year 1981 I was broken and shattered as I lay in the county jail facing years in prison. At the ripe old age of 21 I thought there was nothing left for me but to die. A few weeks later I was bonded out of jail, awaiting my trial and the certainty that I was going to go to prison, so I purposed in my mind to do all I could to end my life as soon as possible either by accident or intentionally. I delved even deeper into my drug use and drinking and lived an absolutely wild, reckless life and I was driving most people who had ever cared for me away because my behavior was so crazy that no one wanted to be around me... and the darkness grew even deeper.
That winter and spring there were multiple suicide attempts and accidental drug overdoses. Then one day in the spring, I recall a friend bringing this album over to my house and telling me he had a song he wanted me to hear. He played this this song for me. I told him that I did not really believe that any more. He left the album with me, and when I was alone I listened to it over and over, but in my shattered condition I doubted that there was any hope for me. I really was not even sure if I believed in God anymore and I figured that if He did exist, even God would not want someone like me. A couple of months later I discovered that not only was God real, but He could (and did) take the pieces of my life and put them back together.
So many pieces to my life
Scattered all around
And some of them are gone
And I know that I can't ever
Put them back together again
Pieces, pieces
So many pieces to my life
A puzzle left unfinished
jumbled and unformed
Who can really ever
Fit it all together again?
In a vision, like a daydream
That filters through your mind
I saw Jesus coming closer
Holding all my hopes combined
He spoke with great compassion
As He put one hand on me
And in His other hand He held
What I could never see
He said, "Pieces, pieces
I've got all the pieces to your life
A thousand tiny fragments
Of every single day
I can put them all together
And there'll never be another one who can"
He said, "Pieces, pieces
I've got all the pieces to your life
In my hands I hold the pieces
Of every single day
I can put them all together
So they'll never fall away
I can put them all together
And there'll never be another one who can"
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