I continue my look back. This one fills me with a lot of mixed emotions as I look back over the 4 1/2 years since it was written. We gone through a major turn over in the church since then. I miss some folks, but I believe it had to be. Today, the church is still in transition, but it has come a long way. There is an excitement in the air and I believe we are looking over... getting ready to cross over into a new place.
February 22, 2006
I feel somewhat like a father trying to get the kids together to get in the car for a trip, but they are off doing other things and I have to keep going after them. You finally get one rounded up and ready to go, only to find that the other that was in the car waiting has wandered off somewhere. And all the while I hear the voice of God calling... "follow me." While I don't know exactly where God is taking us, I have an idea, and I have seen glimpses, and I'm like, "If you people could just see what God is wanting to do, and where he is wanting to take us, you'd get on board and follow!"
Like I said, there are those who I believe sense it. They are ready to go, and they are pursuing God themselves, but the corporate journey is staggeringly slow.
Don’t you know that Moses wanted to just pack up in the middle of the night and cut across the desert and go on into the Promised Land? But he could not do that… he was called to lead the others there.Sometimes, I think “Lord, if they don’t want to come along… let me go!” But it does not work that way. Sometimes I think pastors and leaders get tired of the struggle or journey and they settle where they are… but this is where the “divine discontentment” comes into play. The Holy Spirit is stirring something in me, and I know there is greatness ahead if we will not settle. I refuse to stay where we are, because I know God has something amazing ahead that he is calling us to. I’m going on. The one thing that really troubles me is that I remember that many people died and were left behind in the wilderness, having never made it to the promise. I realize that this is going to happen in my church as well. It already has... for many people refused to follow after the promise, because they liked it just fine the way they currently were. Anytime we get at ease, or comfortable, we are at risk of settling short of the promise. Not me... I am going on.