Waiting On God

So, I was reading in the Bible tonight and these verses grabbed me and caused me to dwell on them for a bit.  
Psalm 25:4-5 says:
Make me to know your ways, O Lord;
Teach me your paths.
Lead me in your truth, and teach me,
For you are the God of my salvation;
For you I wait all day long.


As I read this, I recalled something I had been reading a few weeks back, in Karl Barth's book: "Dogmatics in Outline." As I understand Barth, he was writing that we can not know God, except through God's own revelations. In otherwords, our only real knowledge/understanding of God is in what God himself has or is revealing to us. For example, I can teach someone about God... and someone can know "about" God based on what I am conveying, but their only real knowledge "of" God himself is in what God himself reveals. God may use the teaching/preaching or writing of individual, but without the revelation of the Holy Spirit, it is only our knowing about God, which not the same as knowing God. As for me... I don't simply want to know about God, I want to know Him. I want to feel His heartbeat, to know his heart and mind. I want to be like Moses, and not simply know about God, I want to know His ways... how he moves and acts. I want to walk step in step with Him. And the only way this can be done is spend time with God and learn from his revelation.  Sometimes, most of the time, God reveals himself in His Word. This is why we must know His Word. But he also speaks to us by his Spirit. Often times through the spoken Word, as someone is teaching or preaching, the Holy Spirit connects that Word to our spirit and it becomes revelation knowledge to us. 


The psalmist, so long ago, seemed to understand this. The psalmist prays that God makes God's ways known, that God teaches paths, that God leads in truths, and that God is the psalmist's salvation through making himself known. 
And this is the part that just jumps out at me... the the psalmist prays, "for you I wait all day long." Extraordinary! The psalmist says, "I will wait on YOU (God) to reveal to me who you (God) are.


So, now I'm sitting here thinking and I am asking myself..."Can I wait all day long for God to reveal himself to me?" Or do I run from one book to another, from one Scripture verse to another, from one TV preacher to another, from one friend to another, from one church to another...from one opinion to another, seeking to know, reasoning to know, but never waiting for God to reveal God?


As we used to say 35 years ago... "That's heavy!"
That's something really deep to pause and think on. Have I been waiting on God to reveal himself to me... or am I too busy running here and there, looking for God on my time table and my terms? 
The Bible says, "they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength..."
There is something about this "waiting" thing.


God, let me stop running here and there, but rather to wait on you. Teach me Lord.


I'm reminded of a song Julie Meyer wrote and sings... the words say:


I want to know Your passion
I want to love Your Name
I want to feel Your mercy when I’m
Standing in the middle of the flame
I want to know God
I want to know Yah


I want to know
The secret place of Your thunder
I want to hear Your voice
I want to know
The hidden secrets of the Ages
And down ancient paths to walk
I want to know God
I want to know Yah


Yeah... I want to know God like that.